Author Archive: Marry Rich and Have Babies by: Carly Speelman

Moving On


Hanging out at my favorite local lunch spot I’m considering the menu options as my best friend orders first. Although I’m in the mood for a pasta-filled coma, I settle for the healthier choice of a salad. Our waitress leaves and I hear the question I have been dreading since we sat down. “So what …

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Back To Life


“Sometimes, losing control of the big things in our life shows us the importance of all the small things.” Journal Entry: July 2004 Dear Family/Friends, I am so sorry, but you were wrong about me. I’m not a miracle, strong, or a fighter destined for great things. It has been almost a year since that …

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Last Nights Dream


I’m seated in a waiting room… At least I think it is a waiting room. Painters white covered with strategically positioned photographs surrounding me. Placed to give a sense of warmth, but instead just leave me wondering whom they paid to decorate this disaster. I glance at the plethora of National Geographic’s and settle upon …

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Hello Again!


Thank you everyone for being so patient, I am still working on my patience as well. As you may have guessed everything took longer than expected; the surgery, the recovery, time spent in Ohio, etc. The doctor said I would be in the hospital 3-5 days, what he should have said is that I would …

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I’ll be back soon!


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I Carry Their Heart With Me


The world stops, time stops, my heart…stops. The only sound is the cell phone crashing against the pavement as I begin to tremble. I need to go. We need to go. Get me off this godforsaken island! A plane, yes, let’s get a plane. Buy, sell, trade, whatever it takes. In use? The plane is …

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To Whom It May Concern, With Love


July 18, 2003 Dear Carly, You don’t know me, but I know you better than I know myself.  Let me start by saying there is no one that will ever understand, love, and cherish you the way I do.  I know your heart, I know your tears, and I know your strength.  You may not believe it …

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Time After Time


  This past week I finally received word of when my surgery is going to be. (For those of who don’t know I am having a step-surgery. A link is at the bottom of the page for anyone who would like to learn more about it. Essentially this is when they elongate my small intestines, …

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Everybody’s Fine


Gifts come in all shapes, sizes, forms, and times. Sometimes the greatest gifts are those that no actual person gives, but instead is realized by the one they are meant for. Birthdays, holidays, always brought great memories to my family and I, but the best gift I was ever given was the gift I received on …

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I’m Still Recovering


There are those days when you don’t want to hear polly positive (yeah, I made that up) or negative nelly. Sometimes you just want to hear the truth.  So here is the truth.  The days in which I am happy to be alive rate about 60-40 to the days in which I wish the car …

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Helping Hand


As I stretch my arms overhead I close my eyes and absorb the sunshine uninhibited by passing clouds. I begin my approach. One, two, three, spring! Assuming the diving position, my body pierces the clear, chlorine treated water that awaits below. I begin freestyle laps.How many meters I wonder, after having watched so many amazing …

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The Road Less Traveled By….Is Under Construction?


Robert Frost chose the road less traveled by to find his destiny. I know the road well, and have to say in that beautiful poem he failed to mention that there are times when you stumble on an under construction signs creating road blocks. Road blocks are those moments when you want to keep moving …

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Defining Moment


A little eight year old girl stood backstage in anticipation of her first dance recital.  It was her classes turn on stage, and the little girl waited feeling the excitement from the crowd compiled parents and siblings.  She walked to her spot, took a deep breath, and watched as the curtain lifted knowing this was …

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A Deep Breath


Today marks a very important memory for me, the day of the car accident nine years ago.  So many emotions happen on during day that making sense of them is pretty tough.  Having said that even though I may have lost my words on this day, someone quite famous has written a blog that was …

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From The Heart Of A Mother


Things have been happening so fast lately that sitting down to explain it seems impossible. Everyday has not been easy, yet I really put a lot of effort into keeping a positive attitude, but lets face it, with all of this luggage to carry around dark days are going to happen. I went back to …

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A Chronicle of a Patient Patient


Time to make yet another appointment. After two rings I am greeted by a voice I know but have never met.  What I meant to say when she asked me how she could help was, ‘I have been a patient of Dr. B  for about a year.’  What came out was, ‘I have been patient …

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Sometimes it’s okay to take a day


You roll over to a screaming alarm clock glance at the time and hit the button on the right to postpone the inevitable. Who decided on the sound that became our wake up call? Did they put a bunch of people in one room and ask them to pick a noise that reminded them of …

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Complete Control


I have been getting some comments/emails from readers wondering why it has taken me so long to write again.  Let me say, thank you for your caring curiosity!  These past couple of weeks have been difficult. When faced with adversity I feel that people either react in one of two ways.  They either lash out, …

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Being Your Own Best Friend


Today I went to Giant Eagle Market Place in Upper Arlington, Columbus Ohio.  For the past three days my appetite has been lacking to say the least.  I FINALLY woke up this morning HUNGRY!!  I did a few errands then migrated to the grocery store.  I was getting ready to check out when the woman …

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First Rounds On Me!


I’m sitting at a restaurant with one of my good friends when it becomes my turn or to order my meal.  Burger medium, add mushrooms and extra cheddar, no onions, extra pickle spear, and fries on the side.  Seventeen words it took me to order what I wanted to eat!!  It was then my friend’s turn …

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The more difficulties one…


The more difficulties one has to encounter, within and without, the more significant and the higher in inspiration his life will be.
~Horace Bushnell

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Drive By Shooting Of Our Physical Health


I went to the doctor as posted before only to be greeted with conformation that if I want to be ‘healthy’ it will have to be on my own. Coming off of the anti-anxiety medicine has proven to be a worthy adversary.  Symptoms include feeling feverish, nauseous, migraines, fatigue, and an overall uneasiness.  If that …

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To all that are being so patient


Just wanted to drop a quick line that I have been working on my next blog but have run into a little snag in the process. Going to the doctor today, please no worries. I’m okay, just a preventative measure to ultimatly avoid the hospital. Thank you for your patience and I will have the …

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A Search For The Small Things


When sadness takes over, whether it be from everyday life or a traumatic event, acknowledging that we have control seems an impossible feat.  When sadness overtakes me, I tend to drop so far into my own head the world around seems to stop.  I’ll go to the grocery store and come back without being able …

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Welcome all!


Today marks the last day of my ‘numb’ existence.  For around 8mts I have been prescribed medicine that made dealing with life tolerable.  Heavy anti-anxiety medicine that made it easy to not engage or even care.  Was my life that bad? No, but I had given up.  I had decided that the ship had sailed …

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